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Unapologetic

And so I asked myself today what is right?

Was I blinded by a piercing care?

Strong enough to sink me unaware

Or a sample infatuations I see everywhere

I know what I did was wrong but I didn’t feel it was

Not that my feelings were blunt but because it’s a just cause

Did I hear you say remorse?

Yes I felt that but that was all

I called it a quit, didn’t have the gut though

It was exquisite but came with emotional dough

She sat and cried, so I was told

Well, I pretended I didn’t care, stupidly bold

At night beside me was a material fold

The mat couldn’t do the magic though,

Still felt the cold

I felt our intimate times, very magnetic

But I am still unapologetic

She was a trophy I was willing to throw away

Because in the competition I cheated

I blinded my competitors with a prowess veil

And yeah! On her heart throne I was seated

I snatched her breath and bolted faraway

I know she bled and pleaded

Wasn’t trying to be ascetic

But I am feeling unapologetic

You’re probably thinking I am a beast

I was still able to organize a love feast

She was the first and only guest

That is why I describe as huge, my mess

But listen first!

She deserved someone who could show her more

A thousand fold of everything she gave, that is not all

Something she could save, that I was making sour

A kind of acid I was adding, malic

I am very unapologetic

I created wounds in her loving smiles

I mocked her with her out-stretched arms

Spat into her soft giving palms

And left her singing insider her, painful mimes

It was a bankrupt romantic nonsense

But come on, I can’t be viewed as mantic

So I am unapologetic

I sold her to cries and sobs

Her favorite French flies she couldn’t enjoy again on her job

It was entirely my fault

Inside her I opened an unforgivable vault

After I have made her fall

So deep that she needed every breathe to swim from the gulf

But I cut her loose also

Hoping she found a deserving heart to fall into

For that I am unapologetic

Reasons ruled in my head more than reality

I bet you it wasn’t pretty

I was young scared and foolish partially

The thought that I was ugly at heart covered her beauty

I could hardly understand her need even partly

Now I see her and become the antic

I am unapologetic

Stop getting impatience, I can’t finish any sooner

Because our lives are still in ambivalence,

Now I don’t wanna know about her holder

But as we are getting older…

Sorry I can’t tell you the rest

I can only hope for the best!

I am just an awesome example

That couldn’t appreciate and make love so simple

Yes a bad love sample

Not a good fruit for most people, like an apple

Just don’t take this piece as another ramble